‘Bedlam: the asylum and beyond’ interrogates the original ideal that the asylum represented – a place of refuge, sanctuary and care – and asks whether and how it could be reclaimed. This blog series intends to showcase as many different voices and perspectives from people with lived experience of mental ill health and explore their ideas of personal asylum.
This post is from Jonny Benjamin, a mental health campaigner and vlogger attempting to break the stigma of mental health.
I find it difficult to look into someone’s eyes and talk. As soon as I do, a hundred thoughts start flooding through my mind: what do they think of me? Am I blinking too much? Why did I just say that?!
The biggest consequence of my self-doubt was hiding my struggle with mental illness throughout my teenage years, until I eventually had a breakdown and became psychotic at the age of 20. I was diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder, a combination of schizophrenia and bipolar disorder, and admitted into a psychiatric unit. Continue reading